Grateful For Growth

It was almost exactly three years ago that I started my blog.

Recently, I got an email with a description of how much it was going to cost this year. More than it’s ever been before.

My first thoughts were “wait what?!”

I contacted customer support because they wanted me to pay them over $500.

After texting with the guy, he explained that the startup costs for my blog only lasted for three years, and then I needed to renew it.

I told him I couldn’t afford $500+ right now, so he gave me a “deal” because I was such a “valued customer.” [insert rolled eyes here]

Anyway, I thought a lot about it and decided that my blog was worth paying for. It makes me happy. It encourages me to grow. It gives me a platform to express myself on. It allows me to reach others.

Of all those things, I’m most grateful that it helps me grow.

I told Sister T. what was going on. (She has a blog too so I wanted to know her opinion.) I expressed to her that if anything, this whole experience has made me want to make the most of my blog.

I want to post more.

I want to write more.

I want to be more open to inspiration.

I want to be more consistent.

I want to find more joy in the journey.

I even made a goal when I renewed it for three more years: currently I have 37 posts (38 with this one). At the end of this next period, (I have to renew it again in 3 years), I want to have at least 100 posts.

That means that I need to write approximately 60 posts in three years. 20 posts in a year. Approximately 2 posts a month.

Totally doable!

Now that I’ve shared that all with you, I have one more thing to share.

Over the last three years, as mentioned before, I’ve written and posted 37 times.

And I’m not going to lie, some of the first posts are really bad. The writing is lacking, and it is rushed. The grammar isn’t perfect. Not all of the sentences make sense. Some topics are boring. Some are too jumbled. Some are too cheesy. And some are just right.

Over time, my posts have gotten better. They aren’t perfect and they aren’t anything special.

But they mean something to me.

All posts, whether new or old, long or short, funny or serious, cheesy or realistic, interesting or boring, embarrassing or amazing, I’m grateful for them. I’m grateful for their growth. I’m grateful that you can tell my writing has gotten better over time.

I’m grateful that you can watch and read as I change. Learn. Grow. Become.

The best part is that in three years, I’ll have grown again. Changed again. Become anew … again.

I’ll still be imperfect. I’ll still be broken hearted.

But I’m okay with that.

In fact, I’m grateful for that.

It means there is room to grow.

With 60 new posts, I will write again and again and hopefully get better each time.

And after those posts, I hope we can come back to today and see that change.

See that I’ve grown.

See that I’m different.

So cheers to three years, and let the next three begin!