Sunday and Saturday, the 25th and 26th of July, were really hard days for me. I wrote several entries in my journal expressing my pain: My poor heart is hurting. There is a special kind of hurt that I don’t feel all that often. Most times, there is a constant and perpetual heaviness on my…
Read MoreToxic Positivity
Before learning what validation was, I always thought that I was just a very pessimistic person. I felt angry, irritated, and confused every time someone told me to “just be positive” or to “be happy” or to see the cup as “half full” instead of “half empty.” It hurt me because I knew I couldn’t…
Read MoreThe Mountains We Climb
Okay to start off, there are some REALLY ATTRACTIVE glamour shots below. I thought I would share them with you to show the difference between the shifts. (Ya I know I am totally embarrassing myself, but oh well!!!) 🤣😏 I feel like the pictures are pretty self-explanatory, but I will elaborate. The first day was…
Read MoreThe Path of Becoming
I’ve had a really hard time coming up with a title for this one. I know what I want to talk about, but the perfect title has been eluding me. Maybe by the time you’re reading this, I’ve found the ideal title, and it is just above this paragraph. My first title was “You are…
Read MoreBelieving When Hope Seems Lost
The year 2020 has been a doozy. First COVID: school cancelling, home lockdown, quarantining, social distancing, people dying all over the world….I mean GROSS! Then the murder of George Floyd. I think of it as the straw that broke the camel’s back. The match to light the flames. The Black Lives Matter movement exploded with…
Read MoreRage and What’s Underneath
Learning about rage is important. For me, understanding rage makes it a little bit easier to understand why people act the way they act. Understanding why rage affects people and their decisions, cautions us to be aware of the dangers on acting on our own personal feelings of rage. When you think of the word…
Read MoreGrading Trustworthiness In Friends
My friend told me recently that I’ve fallen behind on this blog, and I need to get back on it! I totally agree, but I haven’t been sure on what to write about. However, I realized I can teach about some things I’ve learned throughout my life. I wrote a post about true friends, and…
Read MoreToday’s Not It. But It Could Be.
[Written on January 8, 2020] Today has been a hard day. The weight has been heavy, and the darkness has been present. But I am currently in seminary right now, and I shared a thought: Alma 41:14 14 Therefore, my son, see that you are merciful unto your brethren; deal justly, judge righteously, and do…
Read MoreA Total Touching Tender Mercy
[Written on Friday, November 22, 2019] I should have been in a car accident today. I should have. Let me explain: There was a car turning left, and they were just sitting in the extra lane in the middle. There wasn’t a light, a stop sign, or anything else telling me to stop, and I…
Read MoreTrue Friends
Story time here: Once upon a time…in Elementary School, I had a few good friends. In first grade, I was the weird kid that people thought was crazy…(they weren’t that far off 😉). I had a hard time as some of my best friends moved away. I was stuck. Left behind. Lonely. Sad. I was…
Read MoreEarthly Angels
Have you met an angel? I have. This time, I don’t mean someone who can fly and glows, although my grandma sure is bright! I was sitting upstairs, really struggling with life. Really worried about my arm, really worried about a test the next day, really worried about all the homework I had, and I…
Read MoreTo Be Understood
We all desire to be understood. To feel like we are not alone. To know that someone out there cares, and someone out there believes in us. We crave validation. It is built into who we are. We need to feel important, accepted, appreciated, wanted, needed… it is a normal desire. It is healthy, and…
Read MoreImpossibly Possible?
My arm is broken. I know, I know, you are thinking, “Kyra, I know it’s broken, silly. 🤪” Well, you see, it’s broken again. On July 12, 2019, we went to the doctor to find out why I was having so much pain. They took an X-ray, and there wasn’t anything visibly wrong. BUT, I…
Read MoreThe Power of Laughter
On Tuesday, July 16th, at 8:38 in the morning, I woke up and felt that something was terribly wrong. I immediately journaled to express how I felt. Something is terribly wrong, and it is this persistent problem of depression. I woke up today, and my very first thought was of how heavy my heart felt. With every beat…
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